Today is hard. Leon is refusing to nap, yet he is so tired and is all over me but cries whether I'm holding him or letting him play. It's not crying though, it's yelling. He has an excited yell and he has a I-want-something-I-don't-have yell.
We tried laying down. I got him to sleep for 15 minutes, which was plenty for him. Again, by the time he woke up and was yelling, snot was dripping out of my nose. So I let him get up and he's happy (and will be for about 20 minutes). He just crawled, layed down for 30 seconds, got up and now he's singing and bouncing while holding onto his highchair.
I was changing his diaper, which is nearly impossible because he arches his back and flips over, and one of the snaps came off of my diapers. At this point, I was so frustrated that I just yelled "AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" like out of anger, totally, and then he cried. And I felt like shit.
I just gave him a handout from a yoga training, because paper is so soft and yummy when it gets wet.
And I need to confess something. My post from yesterday about eating meat/not eating meat... well if you feel judged, then I don't blame you. Health isn't your savior. Well, it could be your earthly one, but you get what I'm saying. Sorry I'm kind of a jerk.
Leon needs me.
Oh I've had those days. It's so hard feeling like you can't really help them! Get out of the house tonight if you can. That's what I usually try to do when I have those days. And to make you feel better, I grunted (or growled?? Haha I'm not sure what word to use for it) out of anger today because Owen would not stop climbing on me and pulling my pant legs. He smiled and growled right back thinking I was being funny. I laughed so hard. And then cried. Haha. :) love you!
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